What do you do when the negative feelings overwhelm the positive ones? I don't know. It's hard, very hard to do even the simplest things, especially when you think of reasons not to do these things all the while that you're trying to accomplish them.
I often want to walk or ride my bike to Walmart and then to K-Mart and then who knows where. Well many times, if I make it to Walmart then when I come out of the store it feels like my little bit of mental energy has been drained. I think to myself, how did I ever get this far?
I feel like just sitting down on the sidewalk and not going any further but I know I have to go home. It's such a job getting back home. I'm beginning to learn not to venture out so far from where I live. When things start getting to this point, I know it's time to get emotional and professional help, which is what I have done since starting this article several days ago.
I get great emotional help from my sister, my caseworker and my doctor. My doctor increased my prescription medication which hasn't changed anything yet. However, I don't feel so alone, mostly because of my sister, Susan. She is always there for me and much more a friend than a sister......very special.
When I am overwhelmed with depression, it can make all the difference in the world just knowing that someone understands.