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Battling Depression With Baby Steps

Saturday, February 4th, 2012

I'm doing a little better now.  It always seems to me that I battle depression by taking baby steps towards feeling better.  It's been difficult to deal with family relationships lately because not one person in the family wants to talk about what happened between my older sister and myself.  I have to do all my talking to myself.  Now that sounds like a crazy person for sure.  lol

I think the recovery process takes longer when not one person who was involved in the mayhem wants to be involved in the healing now.  Pretending nothing happened and going on about our business is the method that has always been used in my family of origin.  I personally hate that method and believe it only causes bad feelings to fester.

Taking baby steps and sharing my feelings with my husband have both been helpful.  One of the steps I have taken is to focus my attention on my Dad's journal.  I've been typing it one page at a time and sharing it on the family Website for all the relatives to see.  Most of them didn't know he had even written a journal.  I've been enjoying this project and it is helping me to heal.  I believe one family member is sending the documents to my sister who was banned from the site...and that's okay. 

I've felt sad about banning her and would take her back in a minute if she ever wants to talk with me about our differences.  I couldn't let her continue to treat me with disrespect on the family site though.  Overall, the family site is a farce.  People aren't interested in sharing their lives with each other.  The younger folks enjoyed reading the memories of the older ones and everyone enjoys the pictures a few of us have posted.  However, participation by most members is very low....and always has been.   

It's not healthy when a 65 year old person is still upset by members of their family of origin.  You would think by now, I would be able block their words and actions from hurting me.  I'll never forget something my Dad said to me when I was a teen.   I had complained to him about something my sisters said or did and his response was, "you know how your sisters are".  To this day I still know....but still wish it wasn't so. 


Depression, a Battle Again!

Wednesday, January 18th, 2012
I wonder if it's just this time of year that has me fighting the battle of depression again.  I know the holidays are famous for people being depressed but my worst time is after they are over.  It's probably because the weather gets cold and I have a tendency to get sick.  I'm plagued with sinus infections.  It also gets lonesome.

Since I booted my older sister from the family site, I've felt really sad that once again our relationship bombed.  I don't think it's possible for her to like me.  A number of people said, "good" when I told them she was gone.  It was obvious how hateful she was being.  I'm sure many think otherwise and I still feel like crawling back in my hole but here I am. 

I've been studying my Dad's journal.  He wrote it in the '80's and I've had it all this time.  He passed away in 1990.  I have read bits and pieces over the years but never really delved into it much....it was too painful.  It's still painful, but now I'm not only reading it but posting it for my brother, remaining two sisters and other relatives to see.  This is probably not helping my depression but it feels like something I need to do right now.  He sure loved his family!

I feel much love for my family and that is always what gets me through these really bad bouts of depression.  Right now knowing my son will be over later today, or knowing I'll see my granddaughter this weekend are great things that motivate me to get up and do something.  I've been gaining weight and really hope I will manage to motivate myself to do something about that soon.

I really think motivation is the key to winning the battle against depression.  I'm trying hard to muster up my motivation this time. 

Take Your Own Advice

Wednesday, March 30th, 2011
Here I am again.....blogging in an effort to make myself feel better.  Have you ever noticed that you have good ideas and advice for depressed friends and relatives but can't seem to help yourself?  Well, maybe it's time we take our own advice.

I usually have good suggestions for those who are having a hard time with depression, stress or anxiety.  my ideas range from seeking professional help to taking a walk outside to patting yourself on the back.   I guess I'm weighing my options right now and am trying to decide what idea would be most helpful to me this time.  I've done all of the "advised" things at one time or another in my life.  Are we supposed to keep doing them forever?

I have hopes that my spirits will improve dramatically when the weather finally does.  This has been one of the longest and dreariest Winters and early Springs that I've ever experienced here in Southwest Missouri.  Sunshine has been scarce and we've had way too much rain and snow. 

When the weather is decent I will need to figure out where to put the perennials I brought here from our old house.  I feel like I don't know where to start, even though this yard is very small compared to what we had.  Have I lost my confidence?  Yes, I think so.  It's easy to do when someone else gripes about your abilities and choices and shows no interest in what you want to do. 

I bought two six packs of happy looking pansies the other day and they are waiting for me on the front porch.  Maybe soon I can get out there to put them in a pot in the sunshine.   Maybe......















Depressed Again!

Thursday, March 24th, 2011
I'm really depressed again after a short reprieve from the angry beast.  I guess it's time for me to start blogging again because I believe it helps.  Please bear with me as I try to work through my problems in public.  I hope I can do this, anyway.

We moved in November and we've fought a lot ever since the move.....well, prior to the move and during the move too.  It's been a difficult adjustment for both of us.  The holidays were hard because holidays are just hard even if you haven't just moved.  Our occasional Spring like day has been helpful and I'm hoping for more of that. 

Today however, it is chilly and dreary.  I didn't want to get out of bed.  I know I need help when I have lots of interesting things to do but am not motivated to do any of them.  One of my biggest problems is the feeling that I don't know where to start.  If I could just make myself start then I know I would become enthused about whatever I undertook. 

Maybe writing on this blog again is the start I need.  I sure hope so.  I appreciate all the comments my readers have made and I hope you will continue reading and commenting. 

Thank You

Saturday, November 27th, 2010
Today I'd like to dedicate this blog to all of my readers and say Thank You for your continued support.  I really appreciate you and all of your comments too.  This morning I finally had a chance to read and approve a number of comments that had been made during our recent move.  I apologize for taking so long in getting them posted here on the blog.

I sincerely hope all of you had a good Thanksgiving Day and are still enjoying the holiday weekend.  We are still in the moving process but I'm very grateful to have our computers hooked up and working again.  A week without computers, phones or television wouldn't have been much fun if we hadn't been so busy.  I imagine we'll be trying to find a place for everything and settling in all winter.   

Again, thank you all for reading this blog and for returning again and again to see what's new.  I hope to write soon about the roller coaster of depression and anxiety and fatigue I've had during our moving process......so be sure and check back with His and Hers.   

The Link Between Stress and Depression

Sunday, November 7th, 2010
I'm happy to offer you another guest post.  This one is written by Guy Brandon, a counselor and writer, as well as the founder of StressingOut.org. 

Stress serves an important purpose: it prepares your body for action in order to keep itself out of danger. But unfortunately, the kinds of challenges we experience today aren’t always best solved by that kind of decisive physical behavior. The result, if stress continues, can be a host of mental and physical problems, including depression.

 

What is stress?

Stress results from many different situations , but the form it takes is generally the same. That’s because stress never developed to help us to cope with the demands of the modern world – high workloads, relationship problems, money worries, problem colleagues and difficult commutes. In its evolutionary context, stress is our body’s mental and physical response to a direct, immediate threat. Its job is to enable us to take typically one of two simple behaviors: fight or flight.

 

That’s why we experience stress the way we do. Our heart rate rises and we start to breath faster, to supply oxygen to the muscles. We sweat, to cool our bodies from the coming exertion. We may feel cold, or nauseous, as blood is directed away from the stomach to more essential areas. A cascade of hormones makes us more alert and faster to react. Essentially, it’s a one-size-fits-all response to a threat. That means we can feel much the same symptoms whether we are physically challenged – perhaps by a mugger, or less directly and intentionally by a careless driver – or threatened emotionally or mentally.

 

Changing the way we think

Stress has mental and physical effects. As well as preparing the body for action, it alters the way we think. Our thinking becomes polarized, black-and-white, or ‘all or nothing’ as psychologists call it – enabling us to take fast and decisive action to deal with the potential threat.
 

 

When the threat genuinely is physical – that car that pulls out in front of you without warning, or an unexpected noise in the house you thought was otherwise empty – then that makes good sense. But in the more nuanced situations that we more regularly find ourselves in, this kind of all-or-nothing thinking doesn’t tend to do us any favors. Relationships, tricky work situations and the like demand a more measured response than the immediate quick-fixes that stress evolved to help us deal with.

 

Unfortunately, when a stressful situation goes on for a long time, so do the changes in our thought patterns. We become more anxious and irritable, more impulsive and less flexible in our thinking. We are harder on ourselves, because – in its original context – stress demands that we have to be: it’s what keeps us safe. Stress forces us to think in terms of do/do not; at risk/safe; pass/fail. If the source of stress is still present, then we self-evidently haven’t succeeded in keeping ourselves out of danger. One consequence is that we become far more prone to depression, as our failures are implicitly emphasized over and over as the source of the stress remains unchecked.

 

Cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) and other techniques can be useful in overcoming this unhelpful way of thinking, but essentially, it’s worth remembering that stress is often our body’s best – but ultimately inappropriate and unhelpful – attempt to deal with a bad situation.

 

 

 

StressingOut.org, is a website providing self-help resources for stress, depression, anxiety and related conditions.

Teen Depression

Wednesday, October 27th, 2010
One of the hardest things for me to see are teenagers suffering from depression.  I know it must also be very difficult for their parents, friends and other relatives.  Sometimes our young people need for us to step in and give them the help they most desperately need.  Hopefully parents are watchful enough have the kind of relationship with their children which allows them to see depressive behavior in their teen.  Apparently, with so many teen suicides help may not always come in time. 

I have found a website that looks to me like it would be helpful to anyone who is coping with a teenager who suffers from depression.  The page I'm going to link you to would also be helpful to teenagers themselves.  It strongly suggests teens talk to someone which is something I think it vitally important for anyone suffering from depression.  There is a good list of the symptoms of depression as well as a small section that distinguishes fact from fiction. 

Links on the site will take you to pages that describe other mental health problems teens sometimes have as well as behaviors teens sometimes display when having depression.  Misbehavior and poor grades can often be signs of depression.  I strongly believe in this statement on the site.  "Most people with depression can be helped with psychotherapy, medicine, or both together."  Psychotherapy saved my life and my marriage! 

I hope you have a chance to check out Teen Depression.   There is helpful information on the site for any of us with depression and especially for teens and their parents. 

New Depression Site

Friday, October 8th, 2010
I recently came across a fairly new website that I think could be very helpful to those of us who suffer from depression.  The site is called Everyday Health and the section of the site that I especially like is Depression Basics.    In Depression Basics you can find topics such as "The ABC's of Depression",  "Are You at Risk for Depression" and "Questions to Ask Your Doctor".   There is also a tool to list your symptoms and it helps you determine whether or not you need to see your doctor.

The Depression part of the website also contains a link to find out about other mental health problems as well as a tool to help you find a therapist in your area.  There is also a section that discusses seasonal depression, which many of us have to deal with when coping with cabin fever and in general, the winter blues.  

I haven't yet explored the rest of this website but I can highly recommend you investigate what is offered in Depression Basics.  From this section you can easily move to other sections dealing with depression including, diagnosis, prevention, treatment, management and caregiving.  This site has an orderly collection of material that most of us can find helpful, whether to refresh our memories or to learn something new. 

Sending a Child to Iraq

Friday, December 12th, 2008
Yesterday my oldest son left for Iraq.   It's feels very sad and depressing.  It also causes me a lot of anxiety knowing he is in harm's way.   I will have him on my mind and in my heart and can only hope I will continue to function in a normal manner while he is gone.  

I have a lot of admiration for Sarah Palin who sent her son to Iraq during her Vice Presidential campaign recently.   I wondered at the time how she could continue campaigning in the public eye when her heart had to be filled with pain.   I guess we all go through difficult things and keep on going.......if we are strong enough.  

I have three other children and two wonderful grandchildren.  I am trying to focus my attention on giving them a good Christmas this year in spite of the dire economy.   I've been staying very busy making preparations for the biggest holiday of the year at our house.  The dreary days of January and February are when I'll have the hardest time worrying about my oldest son.   I don't think he will be gone too long and will definitely look forward to his return.  

Thank you for reading and please keep my son, and all other sons serving in  Iraq and Afghanistan, in your prayers this Christmas. 

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De-Stress During the Hustle and Bustle

Sunday, December 7th, 2008
by Susan

Amidst the holiday hustle and bustle, I hope you will take time to de-stress so you don't wear yourself out completely.   My husband and I are doing that on a regular basis this year.   As we have gotten older we have realized that we need to take time for us to be alone together........ enjoying some of our usual activities. 

Yesterday we finished our Christmas shopping, I think.   We always shop for our four children, their spouses and our two grandchildren as well as a few other family members.   We don't spend a lot of money but we do spend a lot of time out there among the crowds.   We try to accomplish as much as possible on weekdays but yesterday, a Saturday, we were right out there in the midst of the hustle and bustle, along with all the other shoppers.

However, we also took the time to see a movie which is one of our favorite things to do.   This time we saw Australia, starring Nicole Kidman and Hugh Jackman.   I loved the movie..... it stirred so many feelings in me.   I did a lot of sniffling and wiped my eyes repeatedly.   Today we are going to a free Christmas concert to be performed by the music department at Missouri State University.  We plan to dress up for the occasion and perhaps have dinner afterwards.  

Oh dear!   I just realized another item we need to get at a store!    I'm also wondering if I purchased enough wrapping paper.   All of these holiday preparations are so much fun and yet so stressful, especially for those of us with anxiety/depression.   I think a nice long walk today would go a long way in de-stressing.  Sometimes a nap helps too!   Be sure to take time to de-stress in whatever way works best for you.